As of right now, I’ve officially moved into my new college dorm. The floor plan is exactly like the one that I had last year, and I’m in the same exact style of room of the floor plan I had last year, too (only I’m on the other side of the room this time). I’ll be starting my third year of college as an English major.
And yet… it still feels like summer.
I suppose this is normal. This summer was quite possibly the longest I’d ever had. Normally, my classes would have started by now, but this year, they don’t start until Thursday of this week—in October.
But looking toward this quarter, which I have all mapped out, I am taking on many responsibilities. Four upper division classes, being the president of my creative writing club, being an editor for my school’s undergraduate literary magazine, all the mind-boggling amounts of reading I have to do…
On one level, I wonder, “My dear, what were you thinking? Yes, this is your junior year and all. You’re expected to do more and take on more responsibility as your intellect grows. But really? All this?”
But to that, I respond, “Yes. All that. And a bag of chips. Because this year and the next years to come, I’m going to try and focus on, ‘What if I succeed?'”
At many point in our lives, we start to think, “What if I fail?” And the gears come to a screeching halt.
But if we ask, “What if we succeed?”
Then that’s when things get awesome.
Because in all honesty, if you’re a good person, have a decent amount of integrity, and can be held accountable for your actions, then most likely, you won’t fail. And if you do fail, you’ll learn to grow.
So, yes. This year is busy. But if I stay true to myself, if I keep aiming for the light at the end of the tunnel instead of falling victim to the darkness that surrounds it, I think I can handle it.
I think I can make this Fall Quarter feel as good and pleasant as summer if I just find the light in all the tunnels.